2 Months

It seems that I have discovered some type of time paradox because these past two months have passed us by both quickly and slowly. When I look back at all the things that we have accomplished in this two month period I am astonished. Time must have gone by slowly if we were able to accomplish so much. Yet, at the same time I can still remember the day we found out we were pregnant as if it were yesterday. When I think about being pregnant as if it were yesterday I can hardly believe my little girl is already 2 months old. Time is a very funny thing.

Abigail is an absolute doll! I think that she is absolutely beautiful. Sure I may be a little bias, but I just can’t get enough of her pretty little features: her button nose, her almond eyes, her rosy pouty lips, her soft chubby cheeks, the slight hint of cheek bones, and her soft blue eyes. I love admiring her features because she looks so much like me. Every time I look at her I see so much of myself and my sister Elise (we have been told we look alike the most). I’ve come to recognize my own beauty through my Daughter’s features.

With that said, I have been really hard on myself lately when it comes to my outer appearance. I detest the person I see in the mirror; to me I look like a tired, frumpy, and chubby mom. I love who I am on the inside, but I’m really not loving the person on the outside right now. I feel a little defeated at the moment. I want to take control of my body, work out, and eat healthy. I just can’t seem to find the motivation. I’m sure with time and with some sleep I will eventually get back on track. My desire to get out of this slump is strong, but I don’t have the physical strength just yet to follow through with my desire. It’s a work in progress. I really shouldn’t be so hard on myself. I really need to focus on the positive, which sure is easier said than done. For now, I will try to appreciate my beauty and gather strength in knowing I’m a Daughter of God. I find myself getting a little off subject, I apologize...enough with the self loathing Megan!

Now back to enjoying my Daughter. She is a very emotional baby, wearing every emotion on her sleeves. If she is not happy she will tell me, whether it’s due to a diaper she just soiled minutes ago or deep hunger just set it. She is also dealing with colic, which is a new experience for me. The colic episodes usually occur at night, but sometimes they show up during the day. I just hold her and rock her while she cries, it’s heart breaking. When she isn’t dealing with normal baby woes she is a very happy girl. She smiles a lot and loves to watch her brother be very silly. I can’t get enough of her smiles, I love, love, love them! There is something so sweet in these first smiles, and coos. I love being a mom of two, it’s more than I have could of dreamed.

Abigail’s 2 month Stats:

Weight: 12.1 lbs (83 %)

Length: 22.5 inches (53%)